2 posts tagged “death”

I went to the funeral today.

It was...difficult, as you can imagine. I'm kind of glad that it was closed-casket. I don't think I could have handled it if it were open. Seeing her face and knowing that she wasn't there anymore.

Kim and I stood together at the actual funeral, and I just sort of hugged her from behind the whole time. The last thing I wanted to do was lose it and break down. At the end of it, I put a white flower on the casket along with everyone else. The hardest part was watching Kat and her family do it...

I watched Tessa, the youngest of the three (six years old), and I really can't help but wonder how much she's going to remember when she gets older. Kat was handling it well. I think she's just confused as to how she should be feeling right now -- it hasn't fully hit her yet. Kat's grandmother kissed the casket and I'm amazed that I didn't just lose it right then and there. I think I might have actually turned my head because I simply couldn't watch...

I just...

It's so unfair.

You think that these things are so far from you -- death...pain...everything. You forget all about them until it just hits and you can't do a damn thing about it.

Mrs. Yeo shouldn't have died. She shouldn't have. It just wasn't supposed to happen.

I now understand why Eric hates God so much...

Kat's mom died today.

I can't say anything more than that.

She was like a second mother to me.

I can't believe it.